Simply Sneaky
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Whining, Bitching, The Norm.
Today has not been a good day for me.
I didn't get enough sleep last night and feel like I have been running since about 7 am.
Had a drs appt this morning for a check up and she is still not happy with my blood pressure. So she upped the dosage of the medicine. And of course told me to lose weight. The cure all to everything I am sure. (that was sarcasm)
Then they did some fasting blood work, and usually I am good with the needle stick in the arm thing but today it hurt like hell and left a lovely bruise.
Then I had to go to the place where I take classes and pretend that all is great! for! me! to the instructors. It is much easier to pretend than to tell them the truth and risk falling apart right there in the hallway for one and all to see. The "goal" now according to my job coach is to have a full time job by June 30. Wonderful goal, but we will see.
Then it was off to work. When you feel like dog shit it is NOT easy to be Miss Friendly Smiley I LOVE My Job order taker. People are stupid and mostly irritated the hell out of me. Really? Don't count out 52 pennies to make your purse lighter when we are F*CKING BUSY. It is NOT cute to let your four year old give the order in the drive through. I can't hear him and with you giggling at how cute he is in the background, I wanted to come out there and slap the shit out of YOU, Mother and then the kid, too.
I did talk to my daughter for a few minutes tonight and she boosted me up and told me that no matter what, no matter where I end up that she will always love me. I don't often talk to my kids about my problems, but sometimes a person needs that unconditional love and support. Or at least this person does.
I didn't get enough sleep last night and feel like I have been running since about 7 am.
Had a drs appt this morning for a check up and she is still not happy with my blood pressure. So she upped the dosage of the medicine. And of course told me to lose weight. The cure all to everything I am sure. (that was sarcasm)
Then they did some fasting blood work, and usually I am good with the needle stick in the arm thing but today it hurt like hell and left a lovely bruise.
Then I had to go to the place where I take classes and pretend that all is great! for! me! to the instructors. It is much easier to pretend than to tell them the truth and risk falling apart right there in the hallway for one and all to see. The "goal" now according to my job coach is to have a full time job by June 30. Wonderful goal, but we will see.
Then it was off to work. When you feel like dog shit it is NOT easy to be Miss Friendly Smiley I LOVE My Job order taker. People are stupid and mostly irritated the hell out of me. Really? Don't count out 52 pennies to make your purse lighter when we are F*CKING BUSY. It is NOT cute to let your four year old give the order in the drive through. I can't hear him and with you giggling at how cute he is in the background, I wanted to come out there and slap the shit out of YOU, Mother and then the kid, too.
I did talk to my daughter for a few minutes tonight and she boosted me up and told me that no matter what, no matter where I end up that she will always love me. I don't often talk to my kids about my problems, but sometimes a person needs that unconditional love and support. Or at least this person does.
posted by S at 7:32 PM
1 Comments:
May tomorrow be better.
And about the change counter and 4 y.o. ordering? How do you now blow a blood vessel? Gah.
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