Simply Sneaky

Gah. Ok where to start.
Still working the fast food job, continuing to look for something that pays more. I find it exhausting to work with only spanish speaking people who will not for the life of them speak English (and YES, they can speak some English) so that I can understand any conversations. I find it really pretty damn rude to have five workers there, four of whom speak spanish and one (me) who does not and I am left out of every conversation. And yes, I could learn some spanish to try to understand whatever it is that they constantly are yabbering about. I could and I might. I really, really, really want to say more on this topic but fear being labeled a racist pig, so I will shut up. Right. Now.
Had a mighty fine laugh out loud moment while reading facebook status' tonight. The former BFF, that some of you might remember, actually had it on her status how there are so many positives in the world, why do some people focus on the negative? And how you should just rid the negatives out of your life.
Well la ti fucking da. Someone has done a complete 360 in the last year's time. Miss miserable negativity must have changed her entire life, cuz she is sure singing a new tune. Good luck to her.
The ex seems to get a little more mentally ill all the time and I wonder what will become of that situation. Worries me, but not a whole lot I am willing to do about helping, I did my share. Over 20 years of helping him and suffering with him. Sounds cruel, but it is someone else's turn.
Feeling rather anxious the last few days, feeling my own bouts of mild paranoia and wondering what the future holds for me. I like to have a "plan". At least kind of, sort of, maybe know what the hell is gonna happen down the road a little way. It makes me anxious to always live by the seat of my pants not knowing what will happen next and what is stable and what is not.
A little clearer picture would be nice. So. Trying to figure that one out.
I am several days behind on my 365 project. I just have not had the time to shoot too many pictures, the weather has been miserable and I have not felt too creative. Maybe I will take some inside the house tonight to get caught up.
Someone I know started a weightloss program and lost 40 pounds. She posted the name of the program/products and I am really thinking hard about checking it out. I am sure it is probably expensive, but maybe worth it. She swears that it really works, that it IS hard work, but is possible. I know, I know, eating right and exercise are the right way to go about losing weight. I DO know that. I just wonder if this program/product could help out a little. Put that on the something to think more about list.