Simply Sneaky

Yesterday was a wild day. I drove 90 miles to the town where two of my kids live to help my daughter with her financial aid for college. She is transferring blah, blah, had to redo all the paperwork= a huge headache.
The worst part was that we were having a winter storm and the driving was HORRID. It took me 3 hours to drive 90 miles and 3 hours back in the afternoon! I was a nervous wreck the ENTIRE time. It was super cold, too, with the windchill. Really was not a smart thing to do driving down there, but after having a lousy week I just felt that I could NOT stand to stay in the house one more day. It was good to see two of the kids. They are both doing so well and it really makes me proud that they are self sufficient and enjoying their young lives.
Went to a celebration last night for the school that I attend. For the most part it was really boring, but it was a free dinner and was probably really good for me to get out among people and socialize. I did get to see two of the people that I really like that I have met there. They have both gone on to find permanent, full time jobs and are doing well.
It bothered me somewhat to listen to all the other students talking about how! great! they! feel! and how they have such high hopes for finding a job, etc...and I do hope that they find what they are looking for.
I just wish I felt like them.
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I really miss having a best girl friend. Even though the one that I had lived several states away from me, she was someone to talk to every day and share things with. Someone to share in my joys and sorrows. And I could share in hers! Someone who "knew" me and "liked" me (well I thought she did, but that is not what I am writing about today). The bf has his brother that he likes to hang out with and joke around with. They include me a lot, but I do feel like the 3rd wheel sometimes and I know they would like to spend time alone together, doing whatever it is men do and talking about whatever they talk about when I am not around.
It would be nice for me to have someone to call or visit or do something with once in a while.
I do know that friends are not going to just come knocking on my door looking to make friends with me. I know what I need to do to make friends. I need to reach out, get out and work at it.
Right now that seems like quite a stretch for me. Not sure if I am up to it.

I need to find something to do this weekend.